There isn't an in-between.

My last relationship has made me realize that I really just want to have fun and do my own thing.  I want to go out and do what I want with my friends, and just truly enjoy my life.  I don’t want the stress that it had caused me because it wasn’t worth it and I see that now. 

My constant confusion should have been a red flag from the start.  He was an amazing guy but I was second guessing everything like it was my full time job.  To be with someone who doesn't know if their whole heart is into something isn't fair and I knew I couldn't do that to him.  A friend of mine had given me some advice a while back that really stuck with me,  He said "Your either in or your out, there isn't an in-between".  I took his advice and I moved on,   

I think that when I do finally meet someone, way down the line, I’ll know because it will be easy.  Not effortless, but easy in the sense that I won’t be wondering what I want.  I will want to resolve everything and say I’m sorry right after we fight because I don’t want to be without them.   I’m just not there yet and I haven’t found the right guy.  In the mean time I plan to be absolutely genuinely happy.