My last relationship has made me
realize that I really just want to have fun and do my own thing. I want to go out and do what I want with my
friends, and just truly enjoy my life. I
don’t want the stress that it had caused me because it wasn’t worth it and I
see that now.
My constant confusion should have been a red flag from the start. He was an amazing guy but I was second guessing everything like it was my full time job. To be with someone who doesn't know if their whole heart is into something isn't fair and I knew I couldn't do that to him. A friend of mine had given me some advice a while back that really stuck with me, He said "Your either in or your out, there isn't an in-between". I took his advice and I moved on,
I think that when I do
finally meet someone, way down the line, I’ll know because it will be
easy. Not effortless, but easy in the
sense that I won’t be wondering what I want.
I will want to resolve everything and say I’m sorry right after we fight
because I don’t want to be without them.
I’m just not there yet and I haven’t found the right guy. In the mean time I plan to be absolutely genuinely
happy.
